Well I guess is pretty obvious I'm trying to avoid looking at them. I guess they feel it too. Simply don't know how to describe my feeling now. Partly I already accepted the fact that they are together, I wanted to be like what I use to be infront of them but things have already change and I seriously don't know what to do or talk normally to them. I hated myself for not being able to bring myself up to face them.

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He still being the same him but I just simply can't be the same me to joke around with him happily. I feel awkward... Thinking about the Bangkok trip totally turns me off. I thought maybe after today when I see them I can acted normally. But it dosen't seem so, I keep trying to get away from them. Imagine I'd suffer 4 days at Bangkok. I only left with 3 choices: