♥ Date: Sunday, February 07, 2010
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I think I should really give up after going to ur Birthday Chalet. Seeing u happily playing, body contact, sleeping together, seating next to her, going out together and asking her to help you cut cake infront of your relatives, parents and friends. I'm really disappointed, jealous and sad yet I still need to hold on to my emotions and put on a fake smile. It really hit me hard in my heart that I feel that I couldn't breathe.
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She said she never like u, but the actions when both of u are together is like couple. Friends can see that, that is why they keep disturb you saying both of u are scandal. But on the contradict side u act as if u are annoyed by it and telling me it will make u feel akward, yet you still get close to him. Okay. Maybe to you, being a best friend with a guy you can be so close with him. It keeps me wonder what kind of person are you?
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I think at the chalet he can feel that I'm weird in some ways. I kept a distance from him whenever I see them together and when he talk to me I just reply in short form so that there wont be conversation between us. I really don't know since when I've fallen for you so deeply.
Maybe is when you cares for me whenever I had problems, you come and chat with me when you're online on msn, walking home with me when we slack till midnight and you walk home back yourself and how I always win when I team up with you playing basketball. Tell me how to not fall for you ?
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We will not be the same like we used to be anymore. I will try every-ways to stop loving you. I know it really hurts and i will be damn upset but I will not give up! Just hoping we still can be friends. I can feel that you like her, I saw your facebook status you must be referring to her. Wish you all the best in every thing u do and I thank you for being by my side all these while when I'm sad. GOODBYE ~
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23:15pm
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